Diana Darby ** "I V" ** Intravenous

Poisoned Dogs

In Tai Chi
my feet aren’t supposed
to turn out rabbit
like an old aunt
banging into tangerines.
No,
my instructor tells me to keep them pointed straight
like a cobweb
collapsing and blooming.
Pale arms
candle my walk
as my head stays motionless.
It is easy for him to say.
He didn’t study ballet for years
where out is the royal jelly of the princess.
He tells me I have bad form
from point after point.
He tells me of famous dancers who stopped
twirling by forty
when their knees collapsed liked poisoned dogs.
He tells me I have weak ankles.
I leave the room
sullen as a pancake
left out on the counter overnight.
I thought I was taking Tai Chi
to relax,
not to lift the veil of my past
with a Chinaman’s knife.