Diana Darby ** "I V" ** Intravenous

The Unworthy

I listen to their calls,
the same repetitive sounds
like the thoughts in my mind.
My yellow daffodils.
The red cardinal by the holly.
Trouble asleep in the dirt.
The bushes alive with the rustling of nature.
It is like that here.
Settling down into myself
I am leaving the world of worry behind.
There has been no call from the woman with the check.
No word from the broken.
Yes,
I am doing it again,
giving myself over to the day
and it’s troubles.
Now,
I must sit on the couch and confess
to the page.
Now I must find what I want,
once more,
regardless of who or what or how.
For most of my life,
I have let the unworthy lead me.
I fear I will never leave this place.